Over lunch, at our favorite hipster hole in the wall, my friend RD shared her fitness goals. Internally I snorted when she said, “If I lost 15 pounds, I would feel better.” I wondered where she kept 15 extra pounds on her petite frame.
Eating less has been the least explored aspect of my lessmoreabundantly journey. However, this week I began to cut some calories and sugar and mentally I felt clearer. Emotionally, not so much, as I made the mistake of watching myself on video delivering a speech.
It was a mistake in that control top pantyhose are a misnomer. They should be called sausage casings which merely squeeze the girth until you are shaped more like a mushroom than a woman. Apparently I lost my neck sometime prior to the meeting. I gestured like an octopus on crack.
Self deprecating humor aside, I realized I have no idea how I look or feel in my own body. I have no sense of how I fill space and what I look like.
Tonight I watched a brilliant documentary called Desert Runners (check it out here: Desert Runner Movie) It followed a group of ultra-marathoners as they ran four of the largest deserts across the globe. In one of the scenes a 56 year old crazy Irishman was in the middle of his third desert run. He was disoriented, vomiting and in pain-yet he still finished the race. In fact he completed all four. Jaime showed a remarkable ability to know how he was feeling and what he could do. He knew his physical and emotional strengths and limits. He knew what he could do and how to run his race.
The film’s Director shared the difference between those who completed and those who did not. It was far less about being an elite athlete, which some were. It was more about the questions they allowed themselves to ask while running the race. Those who finished never once allowed themselves to think or speak anything other than what was the next step. Eat, rest, drink and keep putting one foot in front of the other were the focus of their Universe. Never finishing simply didn’t exist.
Eating less, praying more and loving abundantly each have become their own marathon demanding miles to go before I can sleep. Crossing the finish line I’ll feel better because I will run the race. I will take the next step. I will finish.
What is your race? Where do you have miles to go before you sleep?